| PART FOUR OF 11th SEPTEMBER 2000 UPDATE
“Love’s life bleeds into her art and vice versa. Don’t bother to untangle what is real from what is artifice; at this point the knot is so gnarled that the strands are barely traceable”. (Craig Marks, Feb 1995 edition of Spin magazine). This site is an attempt to untangle the mess Courtney has created and expose her for the liar, manipulator and murderer that she is. Her music cuts to the quick, acting as super confessional while reaching out to every girl who feels ambiguous, good, bad, confused and in turmoil. Her honesty is unashamed, her lies are intricate. Her truth boundary is constantly blurred. Her name is Courtney Love. (Susan Wilson’s book ‘Hole, Look Through This’). You could spend forever trying to work out who each song’s about: ‘Awful’ is rumoured to be about Gavin Rossdale of Bush (“he rages to be true”, “He’s so deep/like dirty water/God he’s awful”)...‘Boys On The Radio’, where Courtney casts herself as a Persephone* leading broken boy-rockers across the styx but back into the mortal world, could be about any one of a half-dozen friends and lovers she’s lost over the years. (Caitlin Moran, Select magazine September 1999). Boys On The Radio was originally called ‘Sugar Coma’. Courtney performed this song on Unplugged Feb 1995. She introduced it as follows: “This is a new song and I wrote it for someone who knows who they are, and my friend Michael. So it’s for two people. I wrote this song about two people. And it’s called either ‘Sugar Coma’ or ‘I Slept With The Devil’, it’s called ‘I slept’/it’s called ‘Sugar Coma’”. Because her voice was nasal and slurred in places, I can’t make out all the lyrics, but anyway, by the time she performed this song at Reading on August 25th 1995, they had changed somewhat. Following are the lyrics, and also the lyrics as given on the ‘Celebrity Skin’ sheet (but if you listen to ‘Boys On The Radio’ there are some lyrics included which aren’t on the lyric sheet (the ones about getting under someones skin, and “he said he’d never, ever, ever go away”). ‘Sugar Coma’: Reading August 1995: Do what you want, Cos I’ll do anything, yeah. I’ll take the blame baby, you’re dying. Look in your eyes, thought I saw everything, yeah I’ll take the blame, baby you’re lying. He said he’d never ever ever go away. He said that I will always, I will always stay. They said that they would never ever ever go away. They said that they would always, they would always stay. What’s yours is mine, there just is carcasses. You feel the guilt, baby you’re dying. We both did it, we both did it, didn’t we, yeah. We killed him dead. Now I am dying. He said that he’d never, ever, ever go away. He said that he would always, he would always stay. They said that they’d never, ever, ever go away. They said that they would always, they would always stay. Oh, I was right (then it gets incoherent). ‘Boys On The Radio’, as on lyric sheet of ‘Celebrity Skin’: Oh the boys on the radio They crash and burn They fold and fade so slow In you endless summer night I’ll be on the other side When you’re beautiful and dying All the world that you’ve denied When the water is too deep You can close your eyes and really sleep Tonight Your beauty blinds If I let you in, under my skin And risen every angel slain I know what you are running to Please come back, oh, come back again I hear the truth it’s coming from you Oh come back, won’t come back again In your endless summer night I’ll be on the other side When the water is too deep I will ease your suffering When the glitter fades in morning Turn away and you will find my empty eyes Your beauty blinds I know that you are rotten to the core I know that you don’t love me anymore. I know that you are rotten to the core. The only Michael this fits is DeWitt. The only other person this could have been about was her. Kurt was leaving her, he wanted her out of his life and he was going to try to get custody of Frances, so she and DeWitt murdered him. “We are poison, we both killed him”. Courtney, Reading August 25th 1995. The songs that stayed with you the longest were ‘Petals’ or ‘Boys on The Radio’. In ‘Boys On The Radio’ there was undying anger and love and contempt, mythic poetic images of vanity and self loathing, all interwoven in a pop melody. “When the water is too deep/I will ease your suffering/I know that you are rotten to the core/I know that you don”t love me anymore... Love had said there was a personal subtext in certain songs, but she was unwilling to decode the messages. “I won’t talk about it because it’s none of your business, she said simply. “Because you will never know”. Right now we are talking about the death of your husband? “Or whatever, specifically, all of that shit - you will never know what that was like. And you will never know what that person was like. And you will never ever ever know the personal truth of that relationship. And I will never exploit it for you. So that’s all I have to say about it, you know, and in the beginning, somebody should have locked me in my fucking room for a year”. (Courtney discussing ‘Celebrity Skin’, The Face November 1998). Personal subtext? Well, we all know what that means, now. Courtney said, “Do you want to hear another song? I played ‘Boys On The Radio’ for Kim Cobain (Kurt’s sister) and she said it sounded like Teenage Fanclub”. Boys On The Radio begins. Ohmygod, I don’t think you are going to recognise this new Hole at all. They sound all sleek and radio-friendly, songs overflowing with melodies, with virtually no visceral pain at all. Who are all the lyrics on the album about? “Who?” Courtney laughs loudly. She’s remembering how I once warned her never to give a direct answer to that question. “So many different people. Everything, from the relationship I’m in now, to the relationships I’ve been in, from mythic pop stars to mythic happenings I’ve been involved in. I can’t explain it and I haven’t analysed it”. (Everett True, Melody Maker Sept 12th 1998.) “Sugar Coma is so pedestrian - it denotes the end of a cycle. Something deadly”. (Courtney, The Face, November 1998). I don’t see the above journalists making these connections. * Caitlin Moran would compare Courtney to Persephone, who was a goddess of the underworld, but Hecate was also a goddess of the underworld and Medea was a priestess of Hecate and Medea specialised in poisons and didn’t hesitate to use them to murder people. Among Euripides’ women, too, are many notorious horrors; the high-souled Alcestis is a rarity beside the hate-consumed maniac Medea… (Myths of The Greeks and Romans, by Michael Grant. Published by Meridian). “I don’t like too much small talk and I like to behave in an externally normal, wholesome manner for the most part of my daily life. Even if internally I am consumed with sick visions of violence, terror, sex, death. It’s stuck deep inside. An old shrapnel wound. Just there. Just ignore it. Just use it”. (Courtney, ‘Women Rewrite Rock’ by Amy Raphael, p 30). Indeed, amid all the claims, threats and innuendo, it seems incredible that nobody has yet considered by far the most likely reason for Love’s hostility towards her accusers: the possibility that she simply resents being publicly condemned for murdering her husband, and that she is responding to those suggestions in the same way as would any other human being, regardless of their nature or status: with denials, anger and threats. In other words, the next time you lose somebody you love, imagine how you’d feel if your father and his friends then told the world that you’d killed them. (Mojo, May 1998). Mat Snow, who was at that time editor of Mojo (but isn’t now) actually claimed responsibility for the additional research for this article -in which Amirault’s and Lee’s website url's were provided, but not Grant’s. 1 Grant and Carroll are not Courtney’s father or his friends. Grant is a private investigator. Carroll was not only friends to Kurt and Courtney, but also Kurt’s lawyer, and Carroll was voicing her belief to Grant that Kurt wasn’t suicidal, and that Kurt may have been murdered, and Courtney involved. Further, for a few months, this lawyer was giving evidence to Grant which implicated Courtney. Carroll has never denied this. “I tape every conversation I participate in to cover myself. That’s why you haven’t seen anybody deny the conversations I quote. They know I have the proof“. (Grant, ‘WKKC?’ p 120). This is an important fact, yet other than Wallace and Halperin, no other journalist has brought this fact up. This is a fact that the Seattle Police Department have never commented on. Grant voiced suspicions to Det. Sgt Cameron very early on in the Seattle police’s “investigation”, and yet, Cameron completely ignored him. Instead, he took the words of Courtney Love as fact. Det Sgt Cameron, how do you explain the above? 2 Another of Courtney’s lawyers called Grant and left a message on his answerphone saying: “Give me a call and let’s see if we can’t get this resolved in your interest”. That looks like an attempt to bribe. If Courtney was innocent, why would one of her lawyers try to bribe her accuser? 3 Courtney tried to get Grant’s private investigator licence revoked, but when it came to the crunch, when Courtney had to actually go to court to achieve this, Courtney and her lawyers backed down. Grant has always been prepared to take this to court. Courtney refuses to defend herself in court. Courtney says: “stop being so cynical, no one gives a fuck”. That’s the best she can do. Last spring, the hive of Courtney hatred was the mission district of San Francisco, where, despite Love’s lawyers threat to sue, the Roxie cinema was premiering the film Kurt and Courtney. The Roxie calendar of events accurately described it as exploring Love’s ‘possible involvement in Cobain’s death’. “As if. As fucking if,” Love sputtered to me. (The Face Nov 1998. This article originally appeared in the Oct edition of Spin). Those aren’t the normal reactions of an innocent person. I expect journalists to ask these questions, that is the nature of their work. Instead, their coverage of this case is substandard garbage, the type of stuff that you’d expect from Courtney. Select magazine printed a letter, which said words to the effect of: Articles on Hole normally come with the pretext of did she or didn’t she? (murder Kurt) No/Do we care? John Harris was the editor of Select at the time Moran’s article was printed in Sept 1999. He was also the editor at the time the above letter was printed (Nov 1999). Now he is no longer editor, he is “senior writer” at Select and Q. Harris was a regular contributor for Melody Maker in 1991, working alongside Steve Sutherland (assistant editor), and Everett True. He was also a regular contributor to NME at the time Steve Sutherland was editor. The current “acting editor” of Q magazine is Andrew Harrison, who was editor of Select magazine in 1994, he wrote an article on Courtney for the May 1994 edition, and another on Kurt’s death for the June 94 edition. Kerrang’s April 8 2000 edition printed a cartoon, the message being, don’t bother to consider what happened to Kurt, just whack the music up. Mojo, Kerrang! Q and Select magazines all belong to Emap Metro publications. Melody Maker and New Musical Express, Uncut (and the now defunct Vox) are owned by IPC Media (which was acquired by Time Warner in 2001). When I first started writing I sent the information to a number of journalists in the naivé belief that they would be interested and better qualified to research the whole subject. Not one of them replied. (See my December 29 1999 update for a list of some of these journalists/media companies) These magazines have no respect for Kurt and neither do the above journalists. The above mentioned journalists base their reporting on unnamed sources and the words of a self-confessed liar -Courtney. Either these people are genuinely idiots masquerading as journalists or they are intentionally avoiding the relevant issues. Either way, I’m sick and tired of their bullshit and this site is a backlash against them. It’s convenient for Courtney and DeWitt that certain magazines published Andrew/Toby Amirault’s and Lee’s website urls, and Mojo’s June 1998 edition even gave Amirault more free publicity by printing a letter from him on the letters page. It’s convenient for Courtney and DeWitt that Amirault proceeded to add to the confusion in the form of his fondness for fake e-mails and rumour mongering, whilst at the same time with holding relevant information. No-one who is seriously researching this case can spend 4.5 years (which is approximately how long Amirault’s site has been going), to produce such a vast amount of irrelevant garbage. The only people to benefit from the stupidity of Amirault's site were Courtney Love and Michael DeWitt. I have no respect whatsoever for the above journalists or Emap Metro and IPC magazines, which: 1 Support Courtney Love unconditionally and unquestioningly. 2 Only print letters which: a) Praise Courtney, or b) Refute the murder “theory”, or c) Are written by Amirault, or d) Say words to the effect of, even if she did murder Kurt, do we care? 3 Will not treat this case in an intelligent way. VH1’S ‘DRIVEN: THE SECRET LIFE OF KURT COBAIN’ gave no mention of the suspicious circumstances surrounding Kurt’s death. Why? Why aren’t the above journalists asking these questions? Digging up these facts? As far as I know MTV have never shown the full version of Nirvana ‘Unplugged’, they cut out most of the bits where Kurt was joking around. Why? Anyone reading this, who is fed up with waiting for so called “journalists” to treat this case with the seriousness that it deserves should: 1 Print off any of the flyers from the link below, make copies of it, hand them out at work, school, rock festivals, leave copies in Library books, put copies in rock magazines in shops, especially if the magazines have articles on Kurt, Nirvana or related subjects. The corporate media/rock press has been negligent in its reporting of this case and should be held accountable for their mis/non reporting. We can do the job better than them. 2 Start your own petitions and send them to the SPD at the address below. 3 We must show the SPD that this case cannot be swept under the carpet. Write letters of protest against the SPD’s silence on this case and send them to Gil Kerlikowske (the new Seattle Chief of Police) at: The Seattle Police Department. 610 Third Avenue, Seattle, WA, 98104-1886. U.S.A. 4 Don’t buy the above magazines, read them in the shop, borrow a friends copy or buy them second hand. 5 Don’t buy official Nirvana merchandise, buy the bootleg videos and CDs, that way, you get to see Kurt as he really was, and not how MTV and Courtney want you to see him. Speak out in defence of Kurt Cobain. The corporate media/music press/the Viacom owned VH1 and MTV won’t do it. We must do it. There are a lot of people out there who don’t have internet access, so get this information out, distribute it, everywhere, it’s what Courtney Love has tried so hard to suppress. 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