| UPDATE OCTOBER 28 1999 MICHAEL DEWITT AKA CALI In December 1994, after seven months of interviews with Cobain’s friends and family members, I reached the conclusion that Courtney Love and Michael DeWitt, (the male nanny living at the Cobain residence in April 1994,) were involved in a conspiracy that resulted in the murder of Kurt Cobain. (1998 printout of Grant’s website). “A lot of women are very possessive of other women, but she (Courtney) was possessive about anybody. She didn’t want Kurt to have any friends except for her. Don’t get me wrong, she could be really nice too, but the way she treated him was sad”. (Peter Cleary, ‘WKKC?’ p 85). Courtney did not, however, have any hesitation about encouraging Kurt to become friends with Michael DeWitt. He was an old friend of Courtney’s before she ever met Kurt. There is a thread running through this that shows that Kurt believed DeWitt was a friend, and whilst Courtney tried as much as possible to prevent Kurt having friends, she made an exception for DeWitt. It is another sign of manipulation on Courtney’s part, and to quite some extent it succeeded. From July 1993 DeWitt played a large part in Kurt’s life. A few days later (July 1993) Cobain returned to Seattle. One friend said: “He just kept to himself. Every time he came back after a tour, he would get more and more reclusive. The only people that saw him a lot were Courtney, Cali, and Jackie”. (‘Cobain by the editors of Rolling Stone’ p 87.) Jackie Farry, another of Frances’s nannies, who seems to have been quite tight in this group. It was Farry who went to LA with Frances in March 1994, whilst Cali stayed in Seattle. It was also Jackie that visited Kurt in the Exodus rehab centre. Frances Bean is also there in her pushchair....she’s with her 21 year old nanny, Cali, who looks as though he should be in the band rather than looking after the baby.(The Face, Sept 1993. This interview was held over 3 days, between July 22-24 1993). He (Kurt) talks about how important it is to have friends outside the music industry he can trust. “Like Frances’ nanny, he’s become one of my best friends. He’s not at all thrilled by what I do. I totally look forward to seeing him everyday”. (The Face, Sept 1993.) Kurt Cobain answers the door wearing a black cotton dress: “Can you zip me up?” he says. Courtney’s not home; she’s on a two week tour of Europe with her band Hole. Kurt and Courtney’s year old daughter, Frances Bean, is on tour with her. One of Cobain’s nannies, Cali, has stayed behind. A twenty year old hipster with long dark hair, he has been taking fashion guidance from Kurt: He wanders around the house barefoot, wearing a water melon print dress. Kurt leads me through the house over-looking a lake in northern Seattle. (Details Magazine, November 1993 by Gavin Edwards, the interviews for this article were held in the beginning of July 1993.) So again DeWitt was left with Kurt whilst Courtney was away. DeWitt went to Rome with Courtney to meet up with Kurt. DeWitt stayed in Seattle with Kurt when he refused the interventions. DeWitt was at Kurt’s house at 171 Lke Wash Blvd when Kurt returned on April 2nd. In short, it looks like DeWitt was there to keep tabs on/befriend Kurt. There is a pattern of control here. And the fact that DeWitt was ultimately Courtney’s friend before he met Kurt is sinister to me. Why couldn’t Kurt have had Dylan living at the house? Why couldn’t Kurt have his own friends at the house without Courtney causing a scene? Grant said that after Kurt’s death DeWitt’s father, who owns a construction company in Washington State, was awarded the contract to carry out substantial renovations on Kurt’s house. Grant wondered if this work was in some way a pay- off for DeWitt’s involvement in Kurt’s death. I saw this house in April 1999, and it was almost completely changed/rebuilt. That is a massive amount of work, very expensive. Why was it done? That house didn’t just have minor changes, it was dismantled and rebuilt. See the photos below: Above left, 171 Lake Washington Boulevard in April 1994. Above right, 171 in April 1999. The plastic dome is where the greenhouse once stood. The most recent mention of Michael DeWitt that I can find was in an article by Everett True in Melody Maker’s Jan 30th 1999 edition: OK, so her band members may have disappeared to drink at Seattle’s premier hang out, the Cha-Cha Lounge, but she has her former nanny Cali DeWitt and her daughter and the Maker to keep her company....and what could be more fun than that? Further in this article: “Hey, where’s Frances gone?” Courtney demanded of her former nanny, as he comes through alone from the other room. “Don’t lose her. I like Her.” Frances reappears. So Courtney and DeWitt were still on friendly terms nearly five years after Kurt died. That has to be a record. The only people who stay close to Courtney are people who benefit financially from their acquaintance with her. Isn’t that right? Let’s see what Courtney says: “Was it necessary to use people here and there?” Love was put off at first, then said, “Using, yeah! Mentoring, yeah. Learning craft from some people,learning self-effacement from others. Is it Athena who rises with the stallions and when they get exhausted and they fall down, she just switches and gets another one? Yeah, to win the race, to get through the gates. What did they get out of me? A lot. The men run companies. The men are multi-millionaires. The one man that I loved so much and didn't feel that way about” -she was finally talking about Cobain- “he was crushed and, I believe this, he was crushed for his love of me. They killed him because he loved me. That’s not what the weak, enfeebled, emasculated Dionysian hero is supposed to do. He’s not supposed to love me. But he did. That is a tragedy.” She trails off. “But he was so sensitive... I don’t want to get into this.” Further in this article Love said: “OK, let me tell you something about my personal history in terms of men. They have to be butch in the end...They can walk around in fuckin dresses for all I care. It’s a contest. I don’t care what you do for a living. If you can throw me around a room, then you’ve mastered me”. (The Face, Nov 1998. This article originally published in Spin’s October 1998 edition). Kurt and DeWitt walked around in dresses, was that a contest Courtney? Is DeWitt one of the “two beautiful lions” Courtney gives credit to on Celebrity Skin? We all know damn well Courtney didn’t love Kurt. She has done everything in her power to destroy his reputation. She destroyed his house. She and DeWitt tried to murder him, and when that failed, DeWitt finished it off in April 1994, one month later. Courtney’s references to Athene are the result of her reading an article which appeared in Salon Magazine on Feb 25th 1998 wherein it was written: I’ve always felt about Kurt Cobain roughly the way Public Enemy feels about Elvis Presley. My heart was always with Courtney Love. Her searing rage burned through me in a way that Cobain’s banal alienation never did. (Watching Kurt and Courtney, Broomfield’s film) only made me feel more on Love’s side. Rezabek and Cobain were inadequate vessels for her voracious energy: I kept picturing her as a radiant Athena, whipping sluggish horses who refused to take her where she wanted to go. This commentary spewed forth from a person called Michelle Goldberg, who seems to admire the qualities of a ruthless psychopath. I see Courtney for the murderer that she is. It obviously appeals to Courtney to liken herself to the Greek goddess Athene (pretentious or what?) If Courtney chooses to bring up Greek mythology then to the best of our abilities we must be Courtney’s nemesis. Nemesis{Greek} Sometimes portrayed as a goddess and sometimes as an impersonal cosmic force. Nemesis is the inevitable punishment for hubris or too much arrogance and pride before the gods. Nemesis is a ‘bad fate’ and her punishments always exactly fit precisely the nature of the crime. (Liz Greene). Kurt is not here to defend himself. We must do it for him, restore his dignity, which Courtney stole from him, so that his daughter will know the truth. Where Courtney hounded, we in turn must hound her with the truth. Where Courtney has tried to destroy Kurt’s reputation in her attempt to cover-up her deeds, we must in turn restore that to him, and in the process destroy Courtney’s fake claims and show her for the liar, manipulator and murderer that she is. Where Courtney plays mind games, we in turn must do that to her. To the best of our abilities we must meet Courtney on every level that she chooses to function. Nemesis. Karma. Logic and reasoned opinion based on named witnesses and true evidence. Psychology, mind sets, belief systems and the behavioural patterns of Kurt, Courtney and DeWitt. All these aspects are important. This is a transcript of between song banter by Courtney Love at the Reading Rock Festival,England on August 25th 1995. I have this on video, I am not making any of this up. Courtney Love: This is Melissa, it’s the first anniversary of her joining the band. And she’s got a fuckin needle hanging out her neck." Sings the song ‘Plump’. Sings Kurt’s song Miss World. When she’s finished this song, she sings as follows: “Like a reptile under your skin, don’t mess with it, I will always win. Like a snake I am under your skin, don’t mess with it baby, I will always win”. I can’t help wondering if she is referring to getting under someone’s skin by using drugs to infiltrate their bloodstream, without their knowledge or consent? I don’t know if this is one of Courtney’s songs, or if she sang it spontaneously. Was this supposed to be a joke? If this was a joke on Courtney’s part, it is unacceptable, she’s an adult with serious charges hanging over her head. She is accountable for her actions and words. It’s also not acceptable to pass this off as: “Oh, that’s just Courtney.” Courtney Love: This song is about chickenshit motherfuckers. Sings the song ‘Gutless’. When she finishes this song she sings: (?) a rose and the shit it grows, I don’t even know the hole that’s supposed to go. Have you ever seen a cripple dance, he takes your body (unintelligible.) Like a reptile I am under your skin, don’t forget that I will always win. She just can’t leave this subject alone. See my update for 11 September 2000 for more on this. Then she talks to the crowd: Courtney Love: All the celebrities are right there (points,) should I like, pour beer on them?. All you kids paid 30 bucks and all the celebrities got in for free. Sings the song ‘Asking For It’. Love then throws bottles of water to the crowd to help them cool down. Launches into the song Sugar Coma. Sings Kurt’s song ‘Pennyroyal Tea’. And destroys it. Gives the one finger salute to the crowd. Sings ‘Credit in The Straight World’. Finishes this song, then sings stuff thats unintelligible then: “My fist will be everywhere you turn.” Then she says to no-one in particular: “Mum, am I pretty? Well honey, you have a lot of character. But mum, am I pretty? Honey, character’s what counts”. Then she says to the crowd: “I hate to piss you off but Blur’s never gonna make it in America. I’m sorry. You guy’s do the trainspotting thing and go down by the river and shoot Bud cans, OK. It’s not gonna happen. I’m sorry to tell you -but since I’m the one that gets picked on all the time I figured I should be the one. It’s gonna be Elastica....Yes Elastica! fuck, yes! If I hear a lack of respect for Elastica I’m walking off the stage now”. Courtney Love: This song is about getting into a lot of trouble, OK. Sings ‘Best Sunday Dress’. Love waffles on about stuff and mentions “Billy Pumpkin” (someone in the crowd says, “play some music, you silly girl”.) Courtney Love: Green Day is next, they’re great. Alright -I’m the whore, she’s the virgin (points to Melissa Auf der Maur.) The virgin knows. She’s the fuckin Pisces. Sings ‘Softer Softest’. Sings ‘She Walks On Me’, during this, she replaces a couple of lines with: “I want him, he’s all gone”” and “WE ARE POISON. WE BOTH KILLED HIM.” I can’t believe her audacity, what was her reason for singing this? Could it be an attempt to down- play Grant’s claims? Whatever reason she has, it’s not acceptable. When someone is accused of murder and they come out publicly with such statements, their motives must be seriously questioned. How many more reasons do the Seattle police/general public need, before this case is re- opened? Why do the Seattle Police Dept refuse to do anything? It is getting to the point that the whole world knows they messed up. The Seattle police know they fell for Courtney’s lies. Chief Stamper, Det Cameron, why don’t you admit it and at least get back a bit of respect? Courtney has been very vocal in her contempt for your department. Why don’t you just slam her, once and for all? To any of Courtney’s fans: if you think she's so great, then you are being played by Courtney for the fools that you are. Courtney doesn’t like you, she has only contempt for you, and she openly displays this contempt, and you are so stupid that you can’t see it. You believe that because she invites you on the stage, or gives you a guitar at the end of her gig, that makes her a genuinely decent person. Well, your gullibility is cheap at half the price. If you had the misfortune to be associated with her, you would be used, chewed up and spat out. You would be begging for help from the nearest cop, if you weren’t incapacitated before you had the chance. This is a woman who has openly shown that she has the capacity, both psychologically and physically, to enforce the very methods evident in Kurt’s death. I wouldn’t trust her in anyway, I wouldn’t eat or drink any food or liquid that she had had access to. She then sings stuff that is unintelligible, then sings: "And when you take your next breath think about a lovely death you want so bad. Your mouth is shut. Your secret’s safe -I’m all shut up. You are my (?) Courtney Love: Frances Bean was three years the other day. She looks just like her Daddy, and she could stare down this whole fuckin crowd if you don’t shut up. She hates me. Courtney Love: Alright, here’s a song about a jerk....I love you too (to the crowd). Courtney Love: Asks Eric Erlandson: “Are we doing Doll Parts?” Courtney Love: I love you too, but you gotta love me more than you love Billy Pumpkin, ’cos we're having a contest, OK (laughing). Then Courtney makes a heart shape with her hands and says: “It’s a heart, a heart.....Heart. Some people on this festival don’t have them”. Sings ‘Doll Parts’, then; Courtney Love: I love Everett True. Launches into Kurt’s song Violet. She replaces the line: “And the sky was made of Amethyst and all the stars were just like little fish” with “and the sky was made of Amethyst and all the stars were just like my fist”. Then she sings: “Just do it baby, ’cos no one cares, you are nothing but a waste of space, and a waste of fuckin air. Just do it baby, or I fuckin will, you have nothing left but time, time left to kill.Yeah, yes, No, No. Just do it baby (unintelligible) or I fuckin will. You have nothing left but time and you’re the one I killed NO, NO, NO, No, (keeps shouting this.) God no. God Knows the truth. The truth is you.” Knocks over microphone, drums etc, tries to look upset but frankly doesn’t make a good job of it. THIS IS THE WAY COURTNEY LOVE WANTS KURT TO BE REMEMBERED. THIS IS HOW MUCH SHE EVER CARED FOR KURT COBAIN. I have seen on various message boards people trying to defend Courtney, people saying that Courtney loved Kurt. The most pathetic message I have seen to date was one which said: Courtney loved Kurt, why else would she have dedicated ‘My Body The Hand Grenade to him’? How mentally challenged do you have to be, to use that as your argument for proof that Courtney loved Kurt and therefore did not instigate his murder? In Melody Maker’s October 18th 1997 the subject of ‘My Body The Hand Grenade’ was brought up: Interviewer: How did you choose the title? Courtney Love: We were going to call it ‘Use Once and Destroy’, it was too much of a drug reference, too rock. Interviewer: The artwork also has a car wreck and a picture of Marie Antoinette. Why did you choose them? Courtney Love: We actually show Anne Bolyn too. She was Henry 8th’s wife who had her head chopped off. When I was little, I used to see these pictures of her with this necklace that had B on it. I always had a fascination with ancient history, Roman especially and early English, and I kept imagining her getting her head chopped off, for my whole life. Then I told Joe who did the art. He had an obsession with Marie Antoinette too. She was decapitated. We also thought about Jayne Mansfield, just the idea of a woman having her mouth and eyes and ears taken away from her. And, hand grenades, the top comes off. You just pull out the pin and it explodes. So, if you take away someones mouth and their eyes and their senses and their brain, they explode. I saw a grenade in my head, I saw taking out the clip, and the human body and what happens if you take out the clip. Head trauma, violence and death. Dedicating an album originally intended to be titled ‘Use Once And Destroy’ to Kurt and Kristen is a small price to pay, if people believe this proves you cared for them. It looks more like another one of your sick admissions to me. Courtney has dragged Kurt’s name through the mud in her attempt to justify her false claims. I will drag Courtney through the mud in an attempt to redress this. Here are some of the things Courtney has said about Kurt, which show her inherent capacity for spite: 1: Courtney, talking to Frances Bean about her father; “Loser, can you say loser?”.(Rossi p 222. Rossi heard this). Maybe Frances was too young to understand this. But what lies and misinformation has Courtney been telling Frances as she gets older? All the lies that she has been desperately feeding to the media, in her attempt to get her story accepted. Frances, Kurt loved you. He was not a junkie loser. He did not choose to leave you, he had no say in the matter. 2: “I used to be able to talk to Kurt, wherever he is. But now he’s really gone. I used to feel like mourning him was really selfish because it would make him feel guilty. And the best thing to do was to pray for him and show him joy, so that he could feel the vibrations of joy. But now I know he’s dissipated, and he’s gone. There’s not anything left. Not even to talk to”. (Courtney Love, Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition). Courtney, how did you send out vibrations of joy to him? How could telling his daughter that her father is a loser be sending joy to him? How could constantly demeaning his name and lying about Kurt’s drug use, do this? How could sleeping with Billy Corgan within three weeks of his death be sending out joy to him? How could sending Trent Reznor letters which made malicious comments about Kurt be conducive to sending out vibrations of joy to Kurt? Trent despises you. You misread him so badly. With the vibrations of joy that you unleash, I have to send them back to you, unwanted. 3: David Fricke: “It has been a year almost to the day, since I interviewed Kurt. At the time (Oct 1993,) he told me he was happier than he’d ever been. And frankly, I believed him”. Courtney replied: “He probably was - at that moment. But his whole thing was “I’m only alive because of Frances and you”. Look at his interviews in your magazine alone. In each and every one he mentions blowing his head off”. (Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition). The only time Kurt made reference to blowing his head off and suicide was in the context of his, at the time, undiagnosed stomach problem, and for no other reason. Courtney, you know what context is, but the truth takes second place to expediency with you. How would you like it to be quoted out of context? SO DON’T DO IT TO KURT. Here are some things he said about his life: “I’m not in anyway afraid of death...I’m afraid of dying now, I don’t want to leave behind my wife and child, so I don’t do things that would jeopardise my life. I try to do as little things as I can to jeopardise it. I don’t want to die”. (The Face, Sept 1993.) “Imagine the worst stomach flu you've ever had, every single day. And it was worse when I ate, because once the meal would touch that red area I would hyperventilate, my arms would turn numb, and I would vomit. I was suicidal on our last tour---I really wanted to blow my head off. And so when we got home I decided to do heroin every day because obviously a heavy narcotic is going to stop the pain. The whole time I was doing drugs I didn’t have stomach pains”. After trying everything for his stomach from pills to a vegetarian diet to a chanting regime, Kurt is ecstatic to have found a doctor who’s prescribing him an experimental gastrointestinal medicine that works. He says he doesn’t want to give the name because the medicine hasn’t actually been approved by the FDA, but it’s reduced his stomach episodes almost as effectively as heroin. “But now if I take heroin it makes me vomit right away, so that doesn’t do any good”. (Details, November 1993. This interview dates to July 1993.) Kurt said: “If we weren’t married, just living together, there would have been three or four times when one of us would have walked out on the other. But because we are so committed to each other, we’ve never had a fight last longer than an hour”. (Details, November 1993, this interview dates back to July 1993.) “I still see stuff, descriptions of rock stars in some magazines -'Sting, the environmental guy', ‘Kurt Cobain, the whiny, complaining neurotic, bitchy guy who hates everything, hates rock stardom, hates his life.’ And I’ve never been happier in my life....I’m a much happier guy than a lot of people think I am...... I don’t want to use this as an excuse, and it’s come up so many times, but my stomach ailment has been one of my biggest barriers that stopped us from touring. I was dealing with it for a long time. But after a person experiences chronic pain for five years, by the time that fifth year ends, you’re literally insane. I couldn’t cope with anything. I was as schizophrenic as a wet cat that’s been beaten....It’s just that my stomach isn’t bothering me anymore. I’m eating, I ate a huge pizza last night, it was so nice to be able to do that. And it just raises my spirits“. (Rolling Stone’s January 27th 1994 edition. This interview dates back to Oct 1993. This is the interview in which Kurt mentioned divorce). “I was in pain for so long that I didn’t care if I was in a band. I didn’t care if I was alive. And it just so happened that I came to that conclusion at a time when my band became really popular. I mean, it had been going on and building up for so many years that I was suicidal. I mean, I just didn’t want to live. I just thought, if I’m gonna die, I’m gonna kill myself, I should take some drugs, y’ know (laughs). I may as well become a junkie because I felt like a junkie every day. Y’ know, waking up starving, forcing myself to eat, barfing it back up...just imagine trying to eat your three meals a day, and just concentrating, just crying at times. Like, aaahg, I’m in pain all the time. And being on tour it was a lot worse too. It made it worse”. (Transcript from an interview with Kurt in December 1993, shown on MTV’s so called “Tribute” to Kurt after he died). At a party that night (January 8th, 1994), Cobain spoke about death. Not his own, but those of four just -departed role models: Frank Zappa, River Phoenix, Fred Gwynne (Herman Munster) and the radical, seventies governor of Washington, Dixie Lee Ray. ‘There was nothing morbid about it’, says Mike Collier. ‘Kurt was rueful they'd gone, not aiming to join them.’ (Sandford p 307). 4: “What kind of mood was he in on the European tour before he overdosed in Rome? Was that a genuine suicide attempt?”. Courtney replied: “He hated everything, everybody. Hated, hated, hated. He called me from Spain crying. That’s why he would tell people, “No, I’m not on it”. Because he did not want to become a junkie icon. And now he is......”And: “Kurt had gone all out for me when I got there {Rome}. He’d gotten me roses. He’d gotten me a piece of the Colosseum.......I had some champagne, took a valium, we made out, I fell asleep. The rejection he must have felt after all that anticipation...I turned over about 3 or 4 in the morning to make love, and he was gone. He was at the end of the bed with a thousand dollars in his pocket and a note saying, “You don’t love me anymore. I’d rather die than go through a divorce”....I can see how it happened. He took 50 fucking pills. He probably forgot how many he took. But there was a definite suicidal urge to be gobbling and gobbling. Goddamn, man” (Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition.) Dr Galletta denied that so many pills where ingested, he said it didn’t look like a suicide attempt. He also said that Kurt played with Frances and that he didn’t seem like a man who had tried to end it all. We know Kurt wasn’t suicidal. There are no witnesses to the fact that he was, other than you and your unnamed sources. You say he didn’t want to be a junkie icon, but you alone have constantly tried to ensure that that is exactly what he has become. With friends like you, who needs enemies? You stand alone with your allegations that Kurt was a big user of heroin in the last months of his life. There is evidence to suggest you are not telling the truth. You say Kurt hated everyone and everything whilst he was in Europe on his tour, well, here are a few facts about Kurt on this tour, which I have on film, and which is the truth: On 21st Feb 1994, at the concert at Modena, Italy. Between singing ‘Serve The Servants’ and ‘Come As You Are’, Novoselic commented on the “cheap seats” in the hall, Kurt looked towards these and laughed, then he said, “I’m sorry, I’ll play this for you personally”, and sang most of ‘Come As You Are’ facing towards them. During this song he struck some arabesque type pose. Between ‘Breed’ and ‘Serve The Servants’, Novoselic put on a hat someone threw on stage and Kurt shouted “Head lice, head lice!” Just before he sang Jesus don’t want me for a sunbeam Kurt was telling the audience something about what happened on the airplane, then he said: “Isn’t that great! I will tell my grandchildren that story”. The tone of his voice is upbeat. At the concert on Feb 22 Kurt told the audience that they were great, beautiful. He was looking unwell, he was constantly sipping Evian water. How difficult would it be to mix Rohypnol with bottled water Courtney? Rohypnol will not dissolve in still water, it will dissolve in fizzy drink. Kurt drank plenty of bottled water, it wouldn’t be difficult to taint this with Rohypnol. Here’s the score with the concert at the Palatrussardi Milan on Feb 24th 1994: Kurt didn’t talk much between songs, but at one stage Novoselic said, “I’m Billy Pumpkin” Kurt replied: “No you’re not, you’re Meat Loaf!“ Now, if Kurt was in such a depressed state as Rossi would have us believe, due to the fact he knew Courtney was having an affair with Corgan, how likely would it be that Novoselic would have said this? Kurt was joking about Billy Corgan on Feb 24th 1994, he wasn’t depressed over him! It sounded to me like he could have been relieved Courtney and Corgan were having an affair, it got Courtney off his back, so to speak. At another point in this concert, Kurt was improvising on his guitar, and when he finished, he said: “You should vote me in your readers polls as musician of the year”. At the end of the concert, he waved and said good night. This concert was better than the one he did on Feb 21st, it was more lively on Kurt’s part. As with the previous concert, Kurt is constantly sipping bottled water. I have this on film, I only say this, because I want everyone to know that this is how Kurt was and I have proof, and he was not the depressed miserable wreck that Courtney wants us to believe. 5: “There are 3 completed, finished (un-recorded songs of Kurt’s)....the third one I can’t sing. It’s too fucking good, every part of it is really catchy. He was calling it “Dough, Ray and Me.” I thought it was a little corny. It was the last thing he wrote on our bed. The chorus was “Dough Ray and me/Dough Ray and me,” and then it was “Me and my IV“ (Courtney Love, Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition.) Yet again you are compelled to bring up heroin/drugs. Why? Over emphasis from you signifies to me that I should not believe you. I don’t believe you. You are a liar, a vindictive, nasty piece of work. 6: “Here’s a great story. Kurt didn’t have any real friends. I have a larger group of friends, people that I’ve known for a long time....And Kurt would hear me on the phone, laughing, getting hysterical, talking about designers. So he made this great officious ritual about his friends, and he made a friend in Paris, Yuri. He dared me to say that Yuri was a piece of shit, which was very obvious to me, a million miles away. I never said a word. He wanted me to be controlling. “OK, say Yuri is a piece of shit. Say it”. So he makes friends with this Yuri, and he does this photo session with a gun in his mouth”. Please note that although Max Wallace and Ian Halperin reported in their book ‘Who Killed Kurt Cobain?’ that Youri Lenquette admitted asking Kurt to strike that pose, they seem to have this wrong, because in the June 1994 edition of Loaded, Youri Lenquette stated that Kurt insisted on posing with the gun, but that he was playing around, not serious and that he didn’t see Kurt as suicidal. Love: “..and then Rome happened. I see the British tabloids, and there’s Yuri’s picture on the front page. I hid them. Because to tell Kurt would have hurt him so much. He made Yuri his friend, and this friend fucked up. I never showed him those papers. I didn’t want him to feel inferior and deficient”. (Courtney Love, Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition). How can you boast that Kurt having no friends is a great story? How can you publicly belittle a man you claim to love? How much love does it take to destroy the reputation of such a beautiful man? You have no grace. Kurt did have friends. But you made it so difficult for him. You caused such a scene when his friends became a threat to you. If you lost control because Kurt saw his friends, you caused a scene. You made an exception for Michael DeWitt though. What do you mean - you didn’t want Kurt to feel inferior or deficient? Peter Cleary, one of Kurt’s friends, said you would call Kurt a ----- ------ all the time. (‘WKKC?’ p84.) Cleary said: “One day he was talking to me and another friend and she thought she was being ignored, so she started calling him a --------- ---------- right in front of Frances Bean”. (‘WKKC?’ p 84. This is in line with what Rossi witnessed when on the phone to Courtney, and Courtney was telling Frances that her father was a “loser”). With friends like you, who needs enemies? You don’t care that you destroy Kurt’s name in front of Frances. How can you say such things in front of her and then claim that you didn’t want to make Kurt feel inferior or deficient? Don’t come out with your standard "I’m sarcastic" crap, it’s boring and it has no substance. Since Kurt died you have fallen back on such statements to explain yourself. You have shown nothing but a cheap, base mentality. Things changed after Rome. I have no doubt that Rome was attempted murder. Kurt showed all the signs of someone who was a victim of Rohypnol induced assault -confusion, memory loss, buzzing in the top of his head, distress. And you used this to make out he was back on drugs and then later, that he was suicidal. You show all the behavioural patterns of someone who was scared. This is because Kurt survived and would eventually regain his memory. You were not completely in control. You were so scared you had to down tranquillisers, your fear was seen by various witnesses who were all independent of each other. You weren’t scared because you believed Kurt was suicidal, that’s for sure. You impose your false reality on people, and people believe you. More and more people are realising that you can't be believed. You are a remarkably cruel person and I think that when Kurt returned from Rome you did everything you could to play on his confusion and make his life hell. The nanny is witness to this, see Broomfield’s film. You say that Kurt dropped Frances on her head because he was out of his head on heroin, I don’t believe you. I think this was another of your lies in your attempt to bolster your false claims. I wouldn’t put it past you to relish showing Kurt the pictures Youri took and belittling his friendships in an attempt to upset him. Kurt had the capacity for emotion, he felt things, and you abused this, used it as a weapon against him for your own selfish ends. In The Face Nov 1998 You said that Kurt was so sensitive and then you went on to say that at the end of the day your men had to be “butch”. In your speech at the memorial for Kurt, you mocked the line that mentioned his sensitivity. Your overall mind set is cold, at Glastonbury you changed the last line of Northern Star from “feel their hearts they’re cold as ice”, to “feel your hearts, I’m cold as ice, and you will know the truth”. Another line to this song is: “Oh tear his heart out cold as ice, it’s mine”. (Celebrity Skin lyric sheet). Yes, more people are beginning to see you for what you are. You have shown no love in the way you have portrayed him since he died. You have systematically tried to destroy his character. You are torn between boasting about killing Kurt and not wanting to face the consequences of your actions. You openly admit it in your songs, and then when someone mentions this you say “I’m sarcastic, I’m the queen of irony“. Sarcasm and irony are not acceptable in a court of law. You took away Kurt’s right to life, fatherhood and happiness at a time when he was finally managing to achieve these things. I don’t believe a word you say. I don’t trust you. I know you and DeWitt tried to kill Kurt in Rome. You are a person who physically attacks 14 year old girls (see Amirault update, ‘CL assaults two concert goers’,) you attack people who are physically much smaller than yourself (Victoria Clarke, Mary Lou Lord and countless concert goers.) In the past you have hired men to beat up people who crossed you. You boasted to your father that you stabbed a girl. You cannot control your anger. You lose control. Which is probably why you have such a love for Joy Division’s song, ‘She's Lost Control’. You sang this at The Glastonbury Rock Festival England on June 25th 1999, even though you changed the words to suit your purposes. You mentioned this song in an interview for The Face Feb 1993, this shows that the subject of control, and the loss of it, is something you are acutely concerned with. “When you hear a great song, it touches your life. It affects you, it’s like a scent, it reminds you of something. You fuck to it, you feel blue to it, you feel great to it. It’s like Joy Division’s ‘She’s Lost Control’- that song meant so much to me when I was younger”. Her frustration at being misunderstood spills over. “We were getting associated with this dark side, with hate mongering, with contrived hostility. The anger’s just something that comes out of me naturally, even when I try to temper it” (The Face, Feb 1993). The thing that struck me about your show last night was how the songs from “Pretty on the Inside” roared with paralytic anger, whereas the ones from “Live Through This” seemed to be about being stuck in tortured limbo. (David Fricke interviewing Courtney, Rolling Stone’s December 15th 1994 edition). Fricke is right, paralytic anger, you wrote that one yourself. ‘Live Through This’ is an excellent album, because it was Kurt’s work. Since Kurt died, you have slipped back to singing about ugliness, reptiles and snakes getting under peoples skin, about cripples, and nasty deaths. This is the landscape of your mind, there is no beauty, only anger, death, control and winning. But these songs weren’t considered acceptable for release on an album, so you had to get Corgan to help you with Celebrity Skin, which is a completely inferior record to Kurt’s ‘Live Through This’. So there we have it, no one can ever argue that you are a nice person who loved Kurt. You only love yourself, and the only people who speak in your defence are those who have received a pay off. 23 November 1999 Update Back to Frances Barnett In Defence MAIN |